it never goes away

The thought of you comes on so strong sometimes its hard to breathe. Its like walking through life with hurricane force winds blowing in your face while your gasping to catch your breath. Some nights I still cry myself to sleep. Others I just wake up from dreaming of your face. I miss you the same as yesterday and the same as tomorrow. I wish each day got easier but it doesn't. I can mask your shadow in my mind if I keep entertained where I'm not allowed to entertain you. But that's never permanent. Your almost like an IV that will forever be connected to me, continually flowing through my veins. Feeling your presence everywhere I go. How am I suppose to ever move on if you still have every ounce of my heart? Yet you fail to know it, or take the time for me to tell you. You write me off like I've never been apart of your world. I wish I could do the same back maybe that's how you gather up all the pieces and just start running. But for me its like running in place. Your thought never goes away.

No Turning Back

Verse 1:
I still can't find the words to say to you
for the way I feel now that your near
I'd take the time if there was to explain to you
all the things you make me feel and do


Chorus:
There's no turning back 
I'm in to deep there's no rescuing me 
and I won't fight 
I'm into deep your love is getting to me
and that's alright 


Verse 2:
Your oh so beautiful I just want you to know
but it's more than this one thing for sure
this feeling I cant contain it anymore
I just can't hold it back and I don't think I want to



Bridge:
When these feelings come over me
I want you to stay so they will ever leave

by: TDT

2012

It's a new year, you know what that means new resolutions for the next 365 days. I've never really made resolutions before so I think now at 24 is the time to start :) Some may be silly, some may be extreme and the rest normal so here's to keeping them.. Cheers!!

- to have whiter teeth

-to clean my car inside & out once a week

-to learn from the past & sincerely move on

-to get together with friends at least once a week

-to Pray more

-to increase my income

-to pay my car off

-to be 115lbs. period. 

-to exercise at least 3 times a week

-to try new things often

-simply to be happy again

-call my Mama more often

-be a better person in general

-to meet new people 

-to dance A LOT

-to be in love 

-to try and hear when God speaks

-to figure out my talents and purpose I was created for

Goodbye 2011....

Hello 2012!!!!!!!

it's blurry but it will have to do! 

here's to a wonderful NEW YEAR. 

"12" has always been my favorite number 

so I am hoping for the best year yet... 

just another venting moment

You were so wonderful. You always will be. You will always be the person I knew, not the person you are now. I tried to run. I tried to tell myself I didn't love you. Truth is I've never loved you more than I do now. I tried to tell myself it would be so much better if I just left. I thought someone else could love me more. I thought there would be someone better. I thought that what I had was nothing to brag about. Its simple really. I just thought the grass was greener on the other side. But what I found out is the grass is greener where you water it. And though I had convinced myself I did everything right, all I knew to do, that I didn't put us in this situation, truth is I did just as much as you. I lay in bed at night for some times hours and reflect on what we had. I lay and wonder what you are doing. If you maybe are thinking of me. If you ever think about me. I have lately realized even more reasons why you were so wonderful. How good I truly had it. How I never had to worry about you. How you would look at me, how you would kiss me, the feelings you use to give me when I waited for you to come home, how we for the most part never were apart. I also think of all the things I would do different given the chance....

I don't know if it was simply a live and learn moment in my life, or maybe one day we will be again and I will love you even more. Whatever happens I have come to terms with it, I am trying my best to depend on God alone to direct my path, and if that means a Mr. & Mrs. Thompson 2.0 then I will do everything in my power to make it all up to you. If it means the RIGHT one, the one who was created for me is still out there, then I hope to take my lessons learned and be a better woman for him. Because there is nothing greater in this life than to LOVE and be LOVED.