how do you ever know what you want in life? who's to say this is what your supposed to be doing. all my life I've been told to pray for what God's plan is for my life. i don't do it everyday and sometimes i go months without thinking about it or praying about it. but i feel like I'm that person who never knows when God's talking to me. i can never decipher my own thoughts in my head or if maybe that thought was placed there by God and that's His answer to my prayer. I feel like maybe I'm not close enough or i don't deserve to hear from Him. i need to know what my purpose is in this life. i need to know whats going to make me happy everyday. I'm tired of always worrying about making the wrong choice or decisions and not being in His plan. who I'm suppose to be with, what career I'm suppose to have, where i should be living. I'm so confused.
i just want to do what is right. i want to skip the nonsense and get on with what God has for me. this world really has nothing to offer me. i need to find a new church. i need to get back into being in His presence. my life is constant haywire these days, i feel all out of sorts. like I'm searching for something, but i just cant figure out what it is. i was so close to God this time last year my life felt right, it felt like it was what it was intended to be. then all of a sudden everything flipped scripts again. i just don't get it. i just want to start fresh and new, although I'm not quite sure what that even truly means.
i feel so unworhty and undeserving of anything God has to offer me. i make mistakes every single day, usually the same mistake over and over again. more so these days than before. I'm going to try and get my life back on track. starting this Sunday i am finding a church to go to. even if i have to go by myself!! its the last days and i will not be left behind!!
7.02.2011
baby, remind me
why is it the things that originally attracted us to the one were with change. the reasons we fell in love with them they no longer do or it seems as if they all went MIA after a few months. where do they go? why do they go? or is it just that they simply haven't disappeared but you've reached the what i call dreaded comfort zone? i find that most people in the beginning of course are more willing to compromise then later on in the relationship. your trying to impress the other so you'll do things you don't even necessarily like. to me that's a no go, don't do that. i wish you could look at someone and see say 6 months then 2 years down the road and be able to make your judgements then.
i fell in love with the nights on the beach under the stars and moon. the way he was always all over me and promised it would never change. the way he held my hand and never let go, no matter where we were or who was around. theres a million things, i could go on for days. but it almost seems as if the things i fell in love with have gone to the curb side not all of them just a few but its the little things that are the most important. how does this happen? guys if you don't like the beach don't take your girl in the beginning if your never gonna do it again. if your not the lovey dovey type then don't be that way in the beginning. you guys need to start being real!! i think more then girls you need to stop doing what every girl wants and just be you. so that way later on down the road when you've reached that comfortable stage its not a bad thing. that way when shes expecting to go sit and for walks on the beach at night because that's what you did in the beginning she doesn't get let down because all of a sudden you hate the beach and don't plan on ever doing that again. don't waste our time with stuff that isn't going to last. or on a different note you could always just learn to compromise and do it only for the simple fact that it makes her happy and that in return makes you happy.
never let a day go by that you don't remind your love how you feel and why your with them. find those butterflies and re-create those nights that drew you together.
i fell in love with the nights on the beach under the stars and moon. the way he was always all over me and promised it would never change. the way he held my hand and never let go, no matter where we were or who was around. theres a million things, i could go on for days. but it almost seems as if the things i fell in love with have gone to the curb side not all of them just a few but its the little things that are the most important. how does this happen? guys if you don't like the beach don't take your girl in the beginning if your never gonna do it again. if your not the lovey dovey type then don't be that way in the beginning. you guys need to start being real!! i think more then girls you need to stop doing what every girl wants and just be you. so that way later on down the road when you've reached that comfortable stage its not a bad thing. that way when shes expecting to go sit and for walks on the beach at night because that's what you did in the beginning she doesn't get let down because all of a sudden you hate the beach and don't plan on ever doing that again. don't waste our time with stuff that isn't going to last. or on a different note you could always just learn to compromise and do it only for the simple fact that it makes her happy and that in return makes you happy.
never let a day go by that you don't remind your love how you feel and why your with them. find those butterflies and re-create those nights that drew you together.
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